i love my BOYFRIEND!

1:23 AM

Monday, September 1, 2008

in my room; sleepyX10000.
i really have freaking lil time to post my blog.
Pulled myself real hard off my bed this morning.
Looking at the my watch realised that it was just 8.30!
I never wake up so early after I got my discharge!
called Wayne, and he took a super long time to pick his phone.
decided to meet at chinatown point,
and you know what,
he was late for half an hour!
PISSED!X10

after yesterday what I saw from his phone,
adding on he was late,
i couldn't help it but keep showing him the fuckedup' attitude.
i really feel so bad, so upset.
he still got the cheeks to ask me what happened.
PISSEDX20
what the fuck can?!?!
i tried to be nice,
i keep quiet and didn't kb anyth.
but the shitty heartache really makes me feel like dying.
then, after that i saw The Newpapers,
saw this article talking about this couple whom planning to get marry,
met with car accident and died terribly.
I suddenly felt so thankful to God that i could still be with my boyfriend,
though i still felt really awful.
went for trainng,
saw chew(he is still as man as usual),
said HI to him,
but he seem to be unwilling to talk to me.
can't blame him,
its all my fault!
Wind was real bad at around 3.30.
super duper light.
chew sailed by, i couldn't help it but kept looking at him,
hoping that he will turn too.
Sigh! but he didn't.
after training went over to Wayne house,
I really feel so tempted to confront him,
It will spoil the relationship and dampen our moods, i guess.
so i just shut up about it.
the smelly shit went for the 10km nike run and got back muddy and sticky!
went to eat dinner at 10.30!
then back to hostel.
feel super fattttt now can!
I saw the IM that he sent to me yesterday.
I think he fucking hates me now lar!
he saw Wayne friendster; saw my comment.
i really don't know what to say just hope that he will understand.
I'm really sorry.
I swear i didn't lie.
The friendster is just a smoke screen,
i think what i said now, he cant be bohered too,
forget it then!...